Sunday, September 21, 2008

physical pain

A friend once said that in order for mental pain to go away, you need physical pain, something which shakes you to the core and awakens you. Physical pain did not do away with my mental struggle for the past two months, however it did leave me with a feeling of awakening. What is meant to stay, stays; what needs to go away, does so on its own. You cannot force anybody, or anything for that matter. Everything functions according to laws sometimes out of your reception. And that is good. Because you cannot control everything. But if you want something to belong to you forever, it does belong to you forever. Love is not something that happens to you, it is something you create. Love can end, loving never ends. There is no nausea, but i suffer from headaches ever since i fell. So some other doctors will have to be consulted i guess..we shall see..

Sunday, September 14, 2008

time to dish and read and swoon

Books read and to be read (last two weeks): Paul Auster - The NY Trilogy (City of Glass), Jane Austen - Verstand & Gefühl, Orhan Pamuk - Masumiyet Müzesi, Oscar Wilde - The Importance of Being Earnest (online version/a first!!!)...
Films seen and to be seen (last two weeks): High Fidelity, Serendipity, Happiness, Stranger than Paradise, Broken English, The Silver Surfer/Fantastic Four, Maradentro, Moulin Rouge, My Own Private Idaho, The Way We Were (!!!), SATC 2&3, Katzelmacher, ...

Monday, September 01, 2008


Ev haline dönüş yaşıyorum..bütün günü mayo ve terlik ile geçirdikten sonra ev halinin rutinine dönüş..amaaaa rutini bozmamak lazım..lazım da lazım..